Or so they sayWhen winter turns to spring
it smells like fresh air
and the beautiful flowers come back in May
Or so they say.
When summer turns to fall
the taste of bitter cold falls on your tongue
and the leaves lay
Or so they say.
But all I can see
is how you left me
and how spring is the worst of all.
Now I'm just a fighter
A fighter in love
Fighting for the love we once called forever
But could now be a never.
The old Victorian house on the hills
with the 3 little kids and dog
now seems out of reach.
We used to be dreamers
but the dreams fell like shattered glass
that's stabbing into our toes.
Trying to pick up the pieces
but we realized too late
that some things must remain broken
for it to finally become okay.
Dark kissI can feel it coming
the blow I've never expected.
I was always the one
to take my happiness and shove it to the ground
with his too.
"Never go back to someone who broke your heart" but I say,
"What if you broke your own?"
It's all my fault
that it's my 5,463rd day here
and I still hate most everything
with lines like red lipstick crossing my arm and thighs
red lipstick you'll never kiss.
I make society say I'm attention starved
but they'll claim they didn't see the signs.
With only over 1,500 days until we can be together
I question if it's worth waiting for
If somehow, I secretly want more.
DepressionI miss your smile
and how your perfect white teeth
I miss the way you'd laugh
at even the smallest
Now your smiles and laughs are gone
nothing stops your tears.
It's been years and years
you've changed dear.
Things go great
until depression sets in
and sets my mind to believe
that it's my fault
this happened to them.
It's my fault that you're not better
and it's my fault you can't smile
It's my fault this happened
and it's my fault you almost died.
With all the blame it's hard for me to think
I don't know if I can take it anymore
Depression has ruined some of my best friendships
because I blame myself.